Down, Sad And Upset

finished 12.5.2025

I never learned to be bored
'cause there always was chocolate
I never learned to be at ease
'cause there always were bottles 
Of bitter juice

But I want to find another way
Yeah, I want to be sane

Chorus:
'cause I get down, sad and upset
When I look into your eyes
And the more that I tell you
The more I try to hide
Like the paths that I wander
When I lie awake at night
But everything looks brighter
In the morning light

I never learned to speak low
'cause there always was my dad
I never learned to speak up
'cause I always was tired
Too tired to fight

But I want to find another way
Yeah, I want to be sane

Chorus

Came to in a darkened place:
Is this a grave 
Or another kind of body trap?
Wake me up before you leave
I'll go to sleep when you're coming back
I never learned to lay the blame
But to hang my head in shame
And through my songs, I learned to hate myself
If you want to, take a look
Tear a page from my old book
Then put it back on the shelf

Walking at a steady pace
Is this a race 
Or a momentary getaway?
I like it out here in the fields
Going in circles, yeah, but that's okay
I have learned to draw a sine
But not how to draw a line
And I can't find a pen that's big enough
Full of words that I don't say
And tangled up in the old ways
If you know what I am speaking of

I never learned to like the sun
'cause I always was longing 
For the night
I never learned to go slow
'cause I always was running
All the time

Chorus