My Equilibrium

started 13.6.2018, finished 8.10.2024

Where shall I start? There's so much to tell
But so many lines I forgot
The beautiful words, I traded them all
For two lonely letters and one dot
Which I can now put in front of my name
(For feeling a little elite)
I could be rich if I had a coin
For every missed hour of sleep

The sun it has set, the kids are asleep
And the TV is turned off for a change
I am not used to these nights anymore
And strumming the strings feels so strange
But then I release the stream in my head
And let it flow onto a sheet
After I've written a few words, I find
That my script has become hard to read

What if I
Won't ever finish
Something, anything
Ever again?
But the fields of gold
And the sunset
And the trees will remain

Searching for my equilibrium
Looking at scales
Searching for my equilibrium
Force that fails

Another night, I'm drawn to my desk
Like an animal craving for food
I try to pick up where I left off last time
But how does one reenact mood?
And so I jump left, and then I jump right
While time, it is running so fast
I'm tired and yet, I will not go to bed
Before I found a few words that last

What if I
Won't ever make it
Out of this prison
In my mind?
But the drives at night
And the detours
Sunken treasures
That others can find

Searching for my equilibrium
Looking at scales
Searching for my equilibrium
Force that fails

All those in favor say aye

Fill my lungs
When the morning comes
With the clean air of a new
Day that brings
Many unknown things
And a new song of me and you